3AM Thoughts: Monsters in Your Head

It’s the 3AM thoughts
that leave a lump in your throat,
eyes that won’t shut,
habits can’t adjust
a brain that ignores
you’re already f**ked

Because life keeps giving you more
than you can any longer handle,
like scrambled foreign words you
can’t even begin to unscramble

The recurring mind-wandering
put your will power to the test,
knowing you’re strong within
but could easily give in.

When the cycle can’t be closed
by opening a bottle or two
your vulnerability convinces you
you’re swimming against the current
and back to trouble you should go back to.

But in the bottom of a drink
You can’t find clarity to think
that the flesh is weak and at night
it’ll keep you awake until it’s fed,
like all the monsters in your head.