The Crumbs They Call Affection

I ask myself today what’s changed?
Heart beating with the same ache,
People I’ve loved so long can’t reciprocate,
And I settled for crumbs they call affection
Given all my attention, dealt with their rejection;
I understand it was f—ked up, in retrospection.

Today I tried to numb the pain again, day by day,
But how long ‘til I no longer feel this way?
Heaven knows I tried, from the Milky Way and back
Years have passed, but I keep falling into the crack
And it’s here I stay, unsure if it’s in my brain
Or if the efforts’ been all in vain,
And it’s just a no-destination train.

My voice is tired from these verses I repeat
The hymn I sing, words I speak, for acceptance I seek
When I know I’m enough in my personality;
When I know I’m enough in this mentality
that no matter how turbulent, keeps me clear;
and no matter how tiring, for me, it’ll always cheer.